Dear Ex,
I don’t know if you still own the phone number that you had
last year. But I am hoping you still do. I don’t know what came up to me that
made me browse our old conversations. Then I typed your number and saved it on
my new device. In the back of my mind, I was praying that you will have a
WhatsApp account. And you did. Or, the person owning your number now does. All the memories, all the feelings came back
to me. The day that we first met, the day I cried when we talked about the people
who broke our hearts and made us bond together. God, I miss you. I miss you so
much Walter. I miss you so much that my tears are rushing down my cheeks at
this very moment. I wanted to blame the 2 bottles of beer that I had earlier
today. Or even my hormones. It is so hard to totally forget you. To totally
forget the person who made me the happiest woman alive when we were still
together. How, on earth can you just throw what we have? To not understand that
even if I am in the other side of the world, I worry about you. That I act
tough in order to hide that I am scared. Super scared to lose you. And
unfortunately, I did. I lost you. I sometimes still talk to your mother. I
still think of her as my Suegra. She is one of the most beautiful gift that you
gave me when we were still together. She treated me as her own daughter. And I
love her as my own mother. Sometimes I worry about Suegro. On how he is, if he
is still smoking a lot as he used to last year. And I worry too, if you fell again
on the wrong girl. I still remember when you told me what happened with your
last girlfriend. She used your money and she cheated on you. It was Suegro’s
slap that made you wake up to your senses. God I do not know why I am
blabbering here about nothing. I don’t know if you already have a girlfriend
again or if you are married. No, I never dared ask your mother if you have a
girlfriend. Now I am debating whether to send you this letter or not. You are
the sweetest, most loving man I have known. But sadly, you also are the coldest
one. Estas frio. This is true. I was hoping to melt the ice that you have in
your heart. But you left hastily without any warning. If I broke your heart, I truly apologize.
Know that in my heart I have forgiven you.
Charlii
